The Theater of Self: the Hero-Director cut
During a moment of quiet reflection, I arrived at an unsettling truth: I create the dramas that consume my life, drawn to the intoxicating rush of emotions they provide. When one drama fades, another emerges almost instinctively. I don't push them away because these emotions make me feel alive. But I don't just cast myself as the protagonist in these dramas—I also appoint myself director. I meticulously script outcomes, orchestrate plot twists, and harbor quiet expectations that everyone around me will follow my vision. When reality inevitably deviates from this imagined screenplay, distress follows. I make adjustments, attempt corrections, but control slips through my fingers, exposing the futility of my efforts. At its core, this protagonist-director urge stems from the human mind's craving for drama's emotional vitality and control's perceived security against uncertainty. Everyone Is the Hero of Their Own Story This realization extends beyond my personal t...